As I have written these blogs the last month or so I have lost my focus. Or rather I realize I never had a focus.
I think this goes back to before the sober house. It goes back to before CR. It goes back to a girl who was in AA. I was sober for a couple of years. My world was simple. AA meetings and work and an amorphous spiritual thing formed my world. But this girl was perfect wounded and vulnerable And I was sober a couple of years. Together? But there were problems. She really wanted a rodeo rider. No matter how she dressed me I was no rodeo rider. And she was a Christian. I was spiritual! I followed her into the catholic charismatic renewal. I got saved and baptized in the holy ghost. This was my beginning journey into the lost in space thing. I have been trying to make sense of this middle ground for the last 47 years. It has been a success in the sense I have stayed sober and learned about each world. but it has been a failure because I find myself a person of dual nationality.
As a citizen of heaven, I have loyalty to Jesus, biblical inerrancy, salvation by grace thru faith, and seasoned with pentecostal practice. But I was birthed by AA. into spiritual practicality. I was smitten by AA, but I was recreated by Jesus.
I realize now I have been trying to reconcile these two deep currents in me. I am not alone. I know of many through the years who have worked out various ways of having coexisting relationships with both worlds.
I realize this is what this is about.
I know you! You love AA or NA. It works. But your innocent love has been complicated by the supremacy of Jesus. The final problem is the war in the Jesus trenches is different than the war in the AA, NA world. One place fights physical death from relapse in this world The other fights over death\ in the spiritual realm.
The problem is as old as the faith. Paul had the problem.
His brothers in the natural did not all want to buy what he was selling.
Do the AA or Na want to buy what I am selling? Not really all together. Maybe a piece here and there. But the left-out stuff is crucial.
So how does ‘Don’t drink and go to a meeting’ mix with ‘He has risen’?
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