I live in two worlds.

I was born into AA at 28 years after a relatively brief drinking period. I was born into faith as a child in a religious sense as a pastor’s kid. I went to college and never went to church or asked for help. The result was mediocre. I went from a 3.5 GPA to 2.0 in my last semester of college. I graduated by the narrowest margins from IU. I entered the service with the usual zeal of the time. Except for bootcamp I never prayed or entered a church. Again the result was mediocre. I left the service after six years and four Westpac cruises with no real professional advancement. And I was randomly out of control with my drinking. I had been rehabbed in the navy and stayed sober on Anabus for a year.

I arrived home and dove into AA. I started asking for help and praying. Got sober and stayed sober. I found friends and they put up with me as I did with them. The miraculous thing is that 47 seven years later a least two of them are still sober and may see these posts as I post them on Facebook. Between us are 143 years of sobriety. So do I remain faithful to not bad month AA? Yes, I do.

At about 2 years sober I chased a girl from AA into a prayer meeting. She left, but I stayed. What I found captured my life. But let me be clear. The church was a journey of discovery and disappointment. But the Jesus I found has always challenged me but never betrayed me.

So I find myself on that dangerous ground.

What I will share thru posts and web site and fiction is my view from this dangerous ground.

We all are very tribal and we demand to choose our own morality. Understanding these tribal differences is key to seeing this dangerous ground between faith and recovery.